Early morning awakens…Golden Kobi, Little Guy Oscar and I are all feeling just a little lazy. We lay in bed, piled atop one another enjoying the five a.m. quiet. We hear an occasional sprinkler turn on then off but other than that, silence. Our breathing slows, our need for external stimulation releases and we rest in the silence of the moment.
Gratitude fills the room and we breath…the boys teaching me to be more present…Golden Boy lets out a huge sigh then returns to his rhythmic breathing…deep yet gentle.
I find my mind rushing forward into what needs to be accomplished today and the Little Guy raises his head, looking straight at me as if to say "No getting up yet Mom…no disturbing the pack please"…his head returns to my leg and he's out.
I ponder then condemn my constant self talk…my rushing forward in my mind…and realize the first step is to stop judging myself…if I feel the need to rush forward into the day then I should rush forward until that little game of energy wasting is played out…but still…
Kobi adjusts his cuddle zone, opting for a bit of space…he lifts his head, takes a moment to smell his behind…a little "toot", then it's time to rest his head again…pure pleasure at being in the body…
What if I followed my body's inclinations? Whatever my body desires is where I will experience my day…time to hit the John…now that's definitely an experience of being in my body's desire…
As if knowing where my body needs to be next, Kobi and Oscar jump from the bed and find a place on the floor to lay their heads…and just as the early morning light brightens, a small group of parrots descend from the sky landing in our trees screeching their little song of joy…
Oscar begins scratching behind his ear, Kobi lets out little barks as he dreams away and I'm up heading for the bathroom…
Gratitude once again fills the room…